I Don't Care

Sometimes a song comes into my mind for no particular reason and when that happens, it often makes me think about the lyrics. That happened today when, all of a sudden, this song popped in my head:



I thought about the struggles I have had with expecting approval from specific people and how that had, for a long time, driven my actions. I didn't want to do anything except earn their approval for living the way I live my life and when I felt that I wasn't earning that approval, it would make me strive that much more to do so. When I looked at the lyrics, it made me realize that I don't need to earn approval from any human - just God. I also thought about how when I put a human's approval of my actions as more important than God, well, that just isn't the way I want to live my life.

I try to make it through my life
In my way
There's you
I try to make it through these lies
That's all I do

Just don't deny it
Just don't deny it
And deal with it
Yeah deal with it

You tried to break me
You wanna break me
Bit by bit
That's just part of you

If you were dead or still alive,
I don't care,
I don't care,
And all the things you left behind,
I don't care,
I don't care

I try to make you see my side
Always trying to stay in line
But you're all I see right through
That's all they do
I'm getting tired of this shit
I got no room when inside this
But if you wanted me just deal with it

So...

If you were dead or still alive,
I don't care,
I don't care,
And all the things you left behind,
I don't care,
I don't care

(I never cared about, I never cared about)

(You won't be there for me; you won't be there for me)

If you were dead or still alive,
I don't care,
I don't care,
And all the things you left behind,
I don't care,
I don't care

If you were dead or still alive,
I don't care,
(I never cared about, I never cared about)
I don't care,
And all the things you left behind,
I don't care,
(you won't be there for me, you won't be there for me)
I don't care at all